Secret Battle With Depression...


I feel so depressed all the time no matter what happens, I always end up feeling worthless and like nothing will ever change. I'm so frustrated. I don't want to deal with these emotional lows. I'm struggling again and I'm not sure why.

What's really frustrating me ??... Hmm.... I dunno? Why do I want to just cry ? Why do I feel overwhelmed by nothing ? Why does life seem so much more difficult for me ?

My subconscious is constantly haunted by the shadow of my Enemy :
My Enemy : “I will never let you forget me,” “I can destroy you,”...

I need to change myself. Without change, we wouldn’t have butterflies.( Butterflies are beautiful and a great symbol of change... ) So, no matter how difficult the change is, I’m going to have a roll with it. I hope that this darkness doesn't last long anymore. It drives me insane...

It's a fight. And I keep on fighting each and every day. So, I guess I'll just keep fighting. I'm hanging on and doing what I can. The pure joy from sleeping made me feel guilty, like I was trying to escape instead of getting better. . I take it one day at a time..

So here I am, fighting against depression, feeling completely exhausted for no reason and holding back the tears that threaten to fall for absolutely no reason...


Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

BGHS Reunion -12th june..

Image
Finally, we were done with the event of conducting the third successful reunion ( phew...it took more than 2 months of planning....) . The best we've ever had. The effort on the part of the organizer ( both on and off the record) was unbelievable and mind-blowing. And the outcome.... Brilliant and Amazing (Frankly speaking, I never expected these many people to turn up). It was the day I have been waiting for...to see all my friends again. It was planned that we would meet at 10 in the morning. Hmm....I was on my word. Praneeth and Nithin came to my place and we proceeded to school (We were the only people who reached on time... ha ha.) ....In the meantime, we shared few smiley moments by taking snaps on the school premises. We were very much waiting for others and finally at 10:30 there was Shirish... The Head Organizer...who planned this Super-Duper-Mega-Monster Event ... . It was then that everyone started coming and I loved to see them all. Anurag, Karthik, Harsha, Pratima,
Read more

Software Engineers Waiting For Haircut ..

This is not to humiliate SE’S. It’s just a short dulcet story.. There was a good old barber in Hyderabad. One day a florist goes to him for a haircut. After the cut, he goes to pay the barber and the barber replies : ”I am sorry, I cannot accept money from you. I am doing a Community Service” … Florist is happy and leaves the shop. The next morning when the Barber goes to open his shop, there is a “Thank You” Card and a dozen roses waiting at his door. A Confectioner goes for a haircut and he also goes to pay the barber he again refuses to take the money. The Confectioner is happy and leaves the shop. The next morning when the Barber goes to open his shop, there is another “Thank you” Card and a dozen Cakes waiting at his door. A Software Engineer goes for a haircut and he also goes to pay, the Barber again refuses the money saying that it was a community service. The next morning when the Barber goes to open his shop... Guess what he finds there...??? A Dozen Software engineers wait
Read more