Madhav..Like, No Other

Thursday was my first day at the office. "The office?" you may ask. Yes. My first-ever day at an office.. On 15th of July I started my first day on the job as Associate Software Engineer (ASE) for Accenture . Not in the office, but in the Westin ( A hotel near by... ). Which was a perfect start, because it was not only an introduction to Accenture, but a return for me as well. Like any person, I was both nervous and excited about the day. I felt like a celebrity in a room full of paparazzi, but not even a soul in the office noticed me. ( Bullshit...First ever in my life.. ). I hardly know 10 members, but its OK with passage of time I'll be able to pick them up... The Westin is very good location to all the IT companies in that area. The location of the Westin is excellent, the hotel is modern and clean. Swimming pool and spa are provided. Furniture is very convenient, there are many beautiful pieces of art, the bathrooms are splendid. Hats-off to the decorator

I feel so depressed all the time no matter what happens, I always end up feeling worthless and like nothing will ever change. I'm so frustrated. I don't want to deal with these emotional lows. I'm struggling again and I'm not sure why. What's really frustrating me ??... Hmm.... I dunno? Why do I want to just cry ? Why do I feel overwhelmed by nothing ? Why does life seem so much more difficult for me ? My subconscious is constantly haunted by the shadow of my Enemy : My Enemy : “I will never let you forget me,” “I can destroy you,”... I need to change myself. Without change, we wouldn’t have butterflies.( Butterflies are beautiful and a great symbol of change... ) So, no matter how difficult the change is, I’m going to have a roll with it. I hope that this darkness doesn't last long anymore. It drives me insane... It's a fight. And I keep on fighting each and every day. So, I guess I'll just keep fighting. I'm hanging on and doing what I can.

These days I'm constantly on FB. I'm about to comment on one of my friend's status, stated as "What Planet has a cloudy Atmosphere?"(I dont know the reason behind this status..). Hmm..Casually, I stared out of the window, What a lovely day it was . The sky was blue, but there were gray clouds . I decided to meet my friends. I hope that it does rain. I like the clouds soo gray. I hope the raindrops fall on me. After an hour I was on the way to Nish's home.. On the way, I felt the cool breeze of pre-rain period, my heart and soul leaped with an unknown delight and pleasure. ( No one knows, why my mind has this undenying feelings.. ). Then, I met my dearest friend, it was RAIN ..( I felt the fresh wet touch of the Rain.. ). While everyone else were waiting for the rain to stop, I started to walk with my crazy friends. I started singing all the way and my friends dint like the way I sang...( Never mind...I love the way I Sing...I love the way I am... It